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Better To Have Never Loved At All

by Konscience

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1.
(Chorus) Say you'll always be my girl Say you'll always be my girl Say you'll always be my darling. (Verse 1) Say it all the time. Say that you'll be mine. Say that you were lead to my arms with every sign that you've ever seen in your life. Destiny devised, but Destiny devised all the color in your eyes. and I hope it's no disguise. Lest it's cleverly devised. Using me as a device just to make you satisfied, then you're gone. Then, you're gone. Baby, um I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. All I know is I beat myself up since the day that I lost your love. (Chorus) Say you'll always be my girl Say you'll always be my girl Say you'll always be my darling. (Verse 2) Say it wasn't meant to be. Say there's more fish in the sea. All the futures I could see had you standing next to me. Now, it's all a blur to me; Now, I'm always starin' at the past. Starin' in my mind at all the times I wish we had. They say it's better to have loved and lost. I just wish that I had never really loved you at all. How can I numb? This pain doesn't give an inch. I ask myself if I even really wanna live.. um. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. All I know is I beat myself up since the day that I lost your love. (Bridge) Loved and lost. Loved and lost. I've loved and lost. (Outro) You said you'd always be my darlin. I've loved and lost (x3)
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Hide Away 03:40
(Chorus) All I wanna do is hide away. (X3) (Verse 1) Where have you been, and where've you gone? I was your knight; now, it's the break of dawn. Darling, I wanna know you, but I don't think I ever did. (Chorus) (Verse 2) Baby, you've broken my chains. Now, I'm shackled again. I know what freedom tastes like. Now, the taste is gone. (Bridge) All I wanna do. All I wanna do. All I wanna do. Oh, baby, all I wanna do. (Repeat) (Chorus)
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My Mistake 01:44
(Verse 1) Wise men say only fools rush in. That Love is blind and dumb explains why I lose my head, but it's alright. It's not alright. (Chorus) There's no reason you just wanna fall away. I misgive my love, and that is my mistake. (Verse 2) I know you're a tear in my heart, but it's tearing too far. (Chorus) There's no reason you just wanna fall away. I misgive my love, and that is my mistake. (Repeat)
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Open the scene with snaps for applause. Have some guy with a hippie mellow voice, "Wow, guys. Give it up for konscience! Wasn't that something special? How profound and heartfelt. He'll be back in a minute after he's finished with his intermittent backstage crying. For now, we have Konnic Relief here to perform his hit song, "My Game." Give it up for Konnic. And give up.. your faith. In humanity" Thank you, this is a song I wrote about a game.. and it's mine. Thank-
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My Game 03:21
(Verse 1) Fuck it, Took a hiatus from the hard shit. Wanted to help as an empathetic artist. I went from straight-up heartless to showing where my heart is. And Now to tear it up and fuckin' toss it in the garbage. And Be a fuckin' narcissist.. It's marvelous.. Pretentious as a Harvard kid.. You wanted this. I'll take you to a thermostat to show you that the heat is on. My dick is on your girl; she might just have to beat it off. No need for salt. I see your anger from across the room. There's only one more thing that I can really offer you, and that's an off to you. I mean, a way to off- you / very quick. I'll fuck your girl right in the coffin you'll be buried in. (Chorus) Right. Right. I'll steal your beat, and man, I'll promise I'm the hardest on it. Right. Right. This is my game. (Verse 2) Fuck it, made some changes Ima run with. Everyone will wanna see the monster I've become, and Ima show it. My flow will take you straight up to the ocean. Little did you know that I'm the greatest with the mic, and I've a right to snatch the mic from you. I don't collab, and I'm a walking one-man cypher, due. I only partner with my posse, getting smaller by the minute. Couple cats keep on frontin cause I'm gettin all the kitten. Bitch, I'm winnin', and I ain't even got AIDS. Damn, Charlie, back at it again with the controversial stories. I got some fucking problems too, but nothing too alarming. Guess I contradict a lot; I won't apologize, I'm sorry. (Chorus) Right. Right. I'll steal your beat, and man, I'll promise I'm the hardest on it. Right. Right. This is my game. (Verse 3) Fuck it. Everybody's frontin'. Everybody's in the game for somethin, and it's nothin' that amounts to shit.. It's just pussy, money, weed; so I'm here to bring some talent to the mix. and I'm predicting a fuckin' storm.. I mean, I'll take the game by storm. Everytime I spit it, man, the weather isn't warm. I'm either hot or cold. . Either ice, or else I'm fire. I'll melt the ice you think you bring, then freeze your fucking heart. Honest.. .. ly, what's gonna be.. the reason that you're fuckin' with me.. is nicotine and ecstasy. ..I'll be your drug. I'll be the beat and be the thing you can't get enough of, but (Chorus) Right. Right. I'll steal your beat, and man, I'll promise I'm the hardest on it. Right. Right. This is my game. (Verse 4) Fuck it, Ima literally fuck it. Either stick my dick in you or else there will not be a fuck to give. I guess that line is getting overused. Like you, it's overused, abused, and 0 for 2. Not hit and miss, just straight up miss, and bitch this isn't shit that I am glad to do. and I ain't even mad at you. I'm angry at your father for not pullin out. With all the doubt that I can muster, I'll express it toward your parent's love. You're prolly the mistake that they're embarrassed of. and there's enough of rope to wrap your throat up to the ceilin'. ..Enough to end the pain and there's enough to stop the feelin's. ..You're fragile as an egg and getting boiled. Man, you're peelin'. ..All the hype you have just isn't real, and Ima steal it like. (Chorus) Right. Right. I'll steal your beat, and man, I'll promise I'm the hardest on it. Right. Right. This is my game. (Outro) Right. Right. I'll steal your beat, and man, I'll promise I'm the hardest on it. Right. Right. This is my.. game.
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(Intro or chorus) Don't you say goodbye; Just kiss me one more time. Let me be your guy; Darling, it's just you and I. You get me every time, And you still catch my eye, So don't you say goodbye. Just say what's on your mind. You're perfect; I know I'm not, But this is not the time... To say goodbye. (Verse 1) We always had a certain spark I took for granted. Had to treat you like the queen that you are. That didn't happen, So the flame died out quick as the start. The lack of kindling And added rain destroyed the spark, But we can have con(trol) over the weather, dear. And we can push all of the rain far away from here. And We can rid of the friction That keeps preventing sparks. And I'll remind you how vital that you are to my heart. Yeah. (Chorus) Don't you say goodbye; Just kiss me one more time. Let me be your guy; Darling, it's just you and I. You get me every time, And you still catch my eye, So don't you say goodbye. Just say what's on your mind. You're perfect; I know I'm not, But this is not the time... To say goodbye. But this is not the time.. (Outro) Don't you say goodbye Cause this is not the time. You're perfect; I know I'm not, But this is not the time. Don't you say goodbye.
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Replaceable 03:03
(Verse 1) Bring back the facade. I took it off, showin' the inside of me. You stole some valuables, and now, you must own up to the fact that you've hurt me, but you don't really care. No, and you never did. Guess I can't read you after all. One thing I've learned: Every rise up creates a fall. (Chorus) Everything's replaceable, including me, and I Wonder if you're replaceable too. If you're replaceable too. (X2) (Verse 2) Led like a sheep to a slaughter. I was lured, baited, and hooked out of the water. Left breathless.. Not even thrown back. If I'd have known that you didn't care, I wouldn't've even tried. But I took comfort in your lies. It kinda felt right, livin' in the sin of a disguise. But now that I look back, I wish that I could see that I didn't even matter. I was replaceable. (Chorus) Everything's replaceable, including me, and I Wonder if you're replaceable too. If you're replaceable too. (X2) (Verse 3) I think it's my fault, dear, 'cause I got too invested. You were Enron; I'm no skeptic. Your head games finessed me and messed me up. Now, I'm less of a man. Who would guess it? Thought a blessin' turned to curses to Heaven, a sentence to death, and the worst of depressions. Head spins. Chasin' you is like chasin' ghosts. I really hope that everything's replaceable.
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(Chorus) Hey, you, you know I'm right by your side, though you may not see it all the time. I'll even be your guardian angel if I ever die. (Verse 1) Lullaby. Lullaby, and goodnight. I'm here in spirit. You can hear me in your dreams if you try. Just stop the tears, dear. I'm here for you. I remember the ride. The ups and downs. The twists and turns until the day that you die, but that's just life. Pick your head up. Put your fists down. When you face down to the ground, everything looks down. Life gives back what you put out. So, if you act bitter and mad, then you'll get clouds. Remember when I was there, you were my rock. Now, that I got taken away. I gotta be yours. The road we wanted was closed; here's the detour. The peace you wanted was dead; there's no resort. spent so much time trying to work it out. I'm probably gonna be sore. I'm fighting all I can, and I'll keep goin. When the fog drops down, I'll help you see more. I know you need my help, so I feel important. I can hear you speaking. I only Wish that you could hear me. I can see your eyes when the tears leak. Sometimes rain can. seem to. pour. Please respond. Sin/cerely, Yours. (Chorus) Hey, you, you know I'm right by your side, though you may not see it all the time. I'll even be your guardian angel if I ever die. (Verse 2) You're sitting up at night. Keep on thinkin that I'm lost, but I'm here, and The only thing that's gone is my body. I live on in your mind. Let the thoughts bring joy, or dreams in the night. If you sleep in the night, I can talk to you, and we'll talk about the demons that bother you. We can talk about the ways that I've honored you. I've talked you up to the Lord, and he wanted to shake the hand of the best person that I've met. All the self-pity that you helped prevent. You helped me love myself, and for that, I love you. and I'll see you when you're here, dear; there's enough room. Though your soul's pretty big, even bigger than your heart. I always loved to see it 'til death did us part. I can see now what I meant to you might have been equivalent to what you meant to me. ()I spent so much time trying to work it out. I'm probably gonna be sore. I'm fighting all I can, and I'll keep goin. When the fog drops down, I'll help you see more. I know you need my help, so I feel important. I can hear you speaking. I only Wish that you could hear me. I can see your eyes when the tears leak. Sometimes rain can. seem to. pour. Please respond. Sin/cerely, Yours. (Chorus) Hey, you, you know I'm right by your side, though you may not see it all the time. I'll even be your guardian angel if I ever die. I said I'll even be your guardian angel if I ever die. (Outro) Oh, darling, I became your guardian angel on the day I died.
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(Verse 1) If you're like me, I know you think too much. It keeps you up at night. All you do is write, but all you do is wrong .. at least in your actions. At least in your mind, I guess. But it's the stress that bests the best that we can muster. A cluster of knots in your chest again. It manifests like every night. And then regret will settle in, but what to regret? Man, We never know. We never know what to do when it strikes, What a few minutes might get to do to your mind. And it's true that life can be a hell of a thing from both ends of the spectrum. What end do you see? My.. bet's on blue. What color's happy anyway? My guess says you don't know either way. but This is not a message for a better day. Just a guide to fight the demons away. I know ya. (Chorus) I know you wanna leave all your problems deep in your conscience. Eternal solver. (Verse 2) It's a three-way fork. There's no turning back, only two ways to go forth. And we keep on lookin' down the wrong way cause we know the road ends quicker. Maybe stops pain. Maybe we don't got strength. Maybe we don't want faith. Maybe we don't see the reason to go far ways when all we've known is bad days, and in that state, we feel a little crazy with a mad brain, and a sad face with a sad fate, and we tend to drive slower in a fast lane. Most people would be happy, but we can't be. Man, it seems my brain just wants to stab me. ..Every sad thought strapped in the back to attack your being with a harsh advance. And at a glance, it can seem like you don't have a chance in hell. (NO BREATH) All you really gotta do is make a stand. (Chorus) I know you wanna leave all your problems deep in your conscience. Eternal solver. (Verse 3) When daybreaks, day breaks me down. Now, I waste muscles turnin' face to frown. Now, the night is gone; the day is young, but I don't wanna see the sun. I'm feelin' an absence in my presence today. I lost myself awhile back; I guess the feelin is just evident today. I been on autopilot, and I might need a mechanic 'cause I'm breakin' down. My thoughts speed, and the brakes are down. Why fight it? My dreams have been my drive, and yet I can't dream. It seems I'm chasing the horizon, but.. ...This really shouldn't mean an end when everything in this world is just means to an end, even life itself. but death is not the end goal. Here's the reason that I'm pickin up the pencil: To teach you that you gotta learn to love yourself, or your mind will always trap you in your own hell. (Chorus) I know you wanna leave all your problems deep in your conscience. Eternal solver.
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Unibomber 03:21
(Verse 1) Let's see just who Konscience is: Synonomous with pop apocolypse. Catch up (ketchup), kid. I'm fuckin' you fresh like condiments (condom mints). A lot of wit, and halfa ya.. can't catch the flow because I'm fuckin' nuts like my left testical. I'm a.. motha fuckin' wreckin' ball because I fuckin' wreck em all like Miley Cyrus. I'm a virus. I'll infect you all. All these deadly diseases, man, there's a plethora. They're pokemon; I like you, Ash; I hope you catch em all. I'm runnin' my mouth a lot; To all the rappers I lapped, you ain't got no paper, son, so how the fuck you gonna rap? You're lamer than the people that Jesus got with. You're all talk and no walk like Stephen Hawkin. You're not fly; you're a chicken, and I'm a falcon. I'll cap ten into your dome, then falco pawnch it. So, you can show me your moves, bitch. Before you lose this, let me ask you just one question: What's your address again? (Chorus) Man, I feel it. Listen I'm menace to your dentist. Make your jaw drop. Get attentive when I wreck this. An incentive to rip shows. Clever and inventive. I'm the unibomber and I'm sendin you a message. (Repeat) (Verse 2) You faggots make me angry. Time to finish ya. You think you hot? You are, Kelly; I'ma piss on ya. I'ma take your brain; maybe scalp it like a pirate, but I can seize your mind just by flickering a lightswitch. Now, say goodnight, bitch... There won't be mourning because no one ever loved you, so your death will be relief. And that's the brief way to explain it, but I don't know what you want me to say. That's why I'm fuckin' sayin' anythang. That's why I go hard like your dad in your mom Before he fuckin' left at least, but that's a sore top ic. You get the fuckin' jist of it, But I ain't saying shit, ya bitch. Just mumblin' a couple bars. We'll go to Mars. Baby, I'ma study ya, but I ain't been inside uh ya. But, now, I got an idea: I'll send myself in the mail. Babygirl, you know that I'm the bomb. (Kill yourself for that one) (Chorus) Man, I feel it. Listen I'm menace to your dentist. Make your jaw drop. Get attentive when I wreck this. An incentive to rip shows. Clever and inventive. I'm the unibomber and I'm sendin you a message. (Repeat) (Verse 3) See, I got the fuckin' bars, and I make a couple beats. and If you wanna start, then I'll have myself a feast in the streets. Tryina diss like you got a cure. Come on, mess with me. I'll make you drink your fuckin medicine like Hennessy. I always beef extensively, ..Exclusive bonus footage. Man, our beef is like a movie, but my part will make a better scene. Fuckin' right, baby. I've been a fiend. Jack, the ripper's in my pedigree, but satan's sendin me. ... Man, you're not dope, and you'll never drop an album cause it's not soap. I don't know who I'm talkin' about, but if you got offended by it, it's about you now. I'm all the way up here; man, you're more down than a mentally retarded kid that's depressed, and I bet you'd make a great hypeman. (Why, man?) ...You're naturally comfortable with boppin your head, and man, I feel it. (Chorus) Man, I feel it. Listen I'm menace to your dentist. Make your jaw drop. Get attentive when I wreck this. An incentive to rip shows. Clever and inventive. I'm the unibomber and I'm sendin you a message. (Repeat) (Chorus) Man, I feel it. Listen I'm menace to your dentist. Make your jaw drop. Get attentive when I wreck this. An incentive to rip shows. Clever and inventive. I'm the unibomber and I'm sendin you a message. (Repeat)
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(Chorus) She's damaged ..or so she says, but I'm obsessin, and she's damaged. ...You'd never guess it just by lookin. Yeah, she's damaged, ...or so she says; I'd never guess it that she's damaged. ...I gotta rescue her. Yeah, she's.. (OR) Yeah. (Verse 1) She's imperfect, but it's perfect. In a perfect world, she's the same person. She's a magnet; there's attraction, but she happens to be bipolar, so it's push and pull. I don't have a charge, though, so I can walk right through. Just give me a sign that you want me to. I can be the one guy that won't ever lie to you. Just give me a chance, and I can show you. You're always saying that you're fucked up. and it must suck to believe in a lie 'cause you're gorgeous. Yeah, I know it sounds corny, forgive me for the word that you hate when I use, and it ain't new news that I need you to listen to the words that I say to you, and take them to heart cause I speak the truth. If I want a Saving Grace, I gotta save you too. And the days feel long when you're gone and you're sad and you're mad and I can't understand that sometimes.. I can't find the words to bring sunrise to your rainy day, and I feel so helpless. That means I ain't perfect neither. We can be imperfect together, Work to be better. Look into my eyes. If you're damaged, so am I. (Chorus) (Verse 2: Komato$e) I got a problem with stalking She got a problem with talking I'm tryna find out what's wrong and We can find a way to solve it Anyway I can help her, Out ain't where I would sell her I know she's got a lot bottled up She keep these thoughts in the cellar I got my thoughts in the attic I let 'em out, sporadic I'm not saying I'm better I'm just saying I'm manic Man, I love her to death I'd give her my last breath Just so she could have one more But she wouldn't accept it She acting so independent, but never depend on her She takes all your time and turns the shit into hers I've got a penchant for all of these damaged women Head steady spinning, I'm living, in hell She tear at my mind tryna tear at herself Ruin me if you want, just spare yourself
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OAF - Dear 03:00
(Verse 1) My heart will jump; My mind begins to breathe. There's something here that gives me life. I know there's nothing else I can believe That holds the certainty you provide. You can fill the empty of my soul. (Chorus) There are things that I don't know (Repeat) (Verse 2) What makes the world seem brighter all the time? It started when she came in my life. She makes me happy in my ignorance. Her essence is all I need to know. She can fill the empty of my soul. (Chorus) (Verse 3) I feel so lost, so aimless in this world. Be my compass. I need you, dear. Lead me to light; it's dark within my soul. I can't see. I need you to steer. You can kill the darkness in my soul. (Chorus)
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(Chorus) [One time] My only excuse is that I enjoy excuses. It's the way that I get down the road. (Verse 1) ...There's an array of lights in a ray of light. All I'm sayin' is, you really can't rely on eyes. This is the base that has allowed my face to fake a smile and silence admissions that may prevent my suicide. I guess that when I said I would be there, it went right over my head, and I Didn't realize you would rely on word, but I still lied, and I'll still lie in the dirt, so... nothing changed. You're still sane, and I'm still deranged. I mean,.. I tried to try. The. rope. broke. on you at a height too high, and I... ...I supported it, but when the mission got hard, I aborted it. I guess I kid too much, like an orphanage, so all the trust we had, there's no more of it. My.. (Chorus) [Two Times] My only excuse is that I enjoy excuses. It's the way that I get down the road. (Verse 2: IInborn) Excuses, excuses. I'm stressed out, but soothin' with all these excuses. It's like these responsibilities are weighing down on me, and it's such a nuisance like I can't even count on myself. When procrastination strikes, I'm just crying out for help 'cause I don't wanna do it now; I put it on the shelf, and I never get back to it. Blame it on myself like my only excuse is that I enjoy when I do this. I am putting a knife in my own back; It's like I'm Jesus and Judas. I can't help it; it's how I cope. These excuses are all I know. There's so much going on on the inside, but this shell's really all I show. Double II. (Chorus) [Two Times] My only excuse is that I enjoy excuses. It's the way that I get down the road. (Verse 3) Excuse me. I'm abusing a new thing: Loose leaf, writing letters to myself that I'll never open 'cause I'm hopin' to no end that I'll stop lyin' to myself just to cope with being closed in by my mind all the time. I designed for the letters to excuse all my actions. So, when you read the poems hidden in my cabinet, you should know they were written with a passion. I don't want to explain to you the real reasons for me leavin you 'cause I don't even fully understand why. I kinda like to be alone, though I don't, and I know it hurts you, but I gotta go. And you'll never know. Yeah, you'll never know. You'll never get the full song, just the metronome. Once I understand me, maybe I'll tell you. 'til then, here's a letter of excuse--s. (Chorus) [Four Times] My only excuse is that I enjoy excuses. It's the way that I get down the road.
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Break! 03:16
(Verse 1) See, I ain't tryna be a fuckin' mess, but I never clean my mind. I just sit up at my desk, always argue with myself. Never make any progress. Maybe speaking from the heart will help me level up instead. But I'm feelin like I'm dead. Feelin' like my mental pencil's runnin' out of lead. Runnin' out of things to say to you. Right out, I bled. Honestly, I gotta find a way to go to bed. (Bridge) Layin' back in my bed never helped me to fall asleep 'cause you were always on my mind; I know I say it all the time, but I'm for real: You have my heart, my soul, [and] my life. I have an (Chorus) Urge to see your face, and I'm standing on the verge. This thing will break. Break! Break! Urge to see your face, I'm just standing on the verge. This thing will break. Break! Break! Everytime I look into your eyes, I keep seein you and I have different fates. Fate! Fate! Hurts to see your face, and I'm standing on the verge. This thing will break. Break! Break! (Verse 2) What is there to say? All I've ever done is wait for you to come my way, but I must wait another day. Wait all of eternity, you're never gonna stay, But I love you, But it doesn't make a difference that I love you. Even though you know I've put nothing above you, []So I know I'll never have the peace and love that doves do, and it sucks, but it's life. And I might have to try to find a way to love myself, instead of searching for the love of someone else. Yeah, it's kinda hard to tell you all the things I wanna tell, but you probably see just how hard I fell. (Bridge) Layin' back in my bed never helped me to fall asleep 'cause you were always on my mind; I know I say it all the time, but I'm for real: You have my heart, my soul, [and] my life. I have an (Chorus) Urge to see your face, and I'm standing on the verge. This thing will break. Break! Break! Urge to see your face, I'm just standing on the verge. This thing will break. Break! Break! Everytime I look into your eyes, I keep seein you and I have different fates. Fate! Fate! Hurts to see your face, and I'm standing on the verge. This thing will break. Break! Break! (Verse 3) I ain't tryna call you out. I just kinda write about what I'm thinkin about. It's kinda hard to be cordial. I had an assortment of things that we could've done together, but it's never gonna happen. []Never is better to say than to get my fuckin' hopes up, waitin' for the day. Are there things you wanna say? Would they sting me once again? Do you see me strictly as a means? Well, have it your way. I'm NOT gonna keep fallin' DOWN into your trap. I say that line to myself, but I know I'm full of crap 'cause... I'm yours, but you're NOT mine. This paper has become my suicide hotline. (Bridge) Layin' back in my bed never helped me to fall asleep 'cause you were always on my mind; I know I say it all the time, but I'm for real: You have my heart, my soul, [and] my life. I have an (Chorus) (X2)
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Torture Skit 00:41
To be or not to be. To see or not to see. To eat or not to eat. These are the questions you should be asking yourself along with, "How did I get trapped here in this sex, torture dungeon?" And "Where is my wife?" For more torture, I will now peruse my disk collection.. Let's see. Willy Nelson, no. Miley Cyrus, no. Tiny tim, no. Too catchy. Ah! Perfect! It's beautiful. Prepare to wish you were dead, my good sir!
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(Chorus) Don't mind my ways; I've come to partay. So pardon my French. It's not in poor taste. I'll be on my way to some other place, But let's just dance Before we part ways. (1) I was born with only arms; i guess i really am a son of a gun. Trying to get up to my levels like fuckin a nun Consent ain't gonna happen. Get stuck in a rung. You little bitch, I'm at the top and I'm still buildin. I'm raisin the roof up, and i kill ceilings. I only got a fuckin floor and it's higher than your ceiling; I can tear a new hole for you if you will it. ..mother fuckers tryina get it. I'ma give it. Why you all up in my motha fucking business? Man, iont even got a hit list. I gotta whose-bitch-is-getting-this-dick list. Your girl's up next. Time to visit. (Chorus) Don't mind my ways; I've come to partay. So pardon my French. It's not in poor taste. I'll be on my way to some other place, But let's just dance Before we part ways. (2) Half of you suck and the other half are brain dead what am I watching AMC? I am a comedian in cross cuz I'm dangerous on a beat. I hit it hard who gives a fuck what Ray said y'all some children music kind of regressed and I aint Jared but imma make you eat fresh it's a disco listen to the disc go round and round until the sound comes out and yes my rhymes will lock you in a roundabout I know your mouth will hound me but you're not a problem Yo, you're glue but I'm not a condom call my meanings Waldo cause you haven't found them (Chorus) Don't mind my ways; I've come to partay. So pardon my French. It's not in poor taste. I'll be on my way to some other place, But let's just dance Before we part ways. (3) You silly fucking cunt, who Would ever want you? It would take a blind man reading a room to touch you. Man, fuck you. I don't give a fuckin shit about your stupid fuckin bangers That you're banging everyday Cause you ain't got shit. And you're not shit. Homie, this is Konscience. I don't know what you tried, but it's not wit. You couldn't even come as hard as my cock spits. Man, i run this Bitch Like Dog walkers with too much energy. Your girl is a centerpiece. So i ate her ass out on the table, human centipede. Man, these rhymes will be the end of me. (Chorus)
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Alone 03:22
(Chorus) I feel alone. So alone. So alone. (Verse 1) I'm not even sure where my shadow went; it's dark in here. I'm anxious all the time; that's just the beating of my heart you hear. I'm bleeding out. I'm bleating out. I'm sheepish; wolves will harvest here. Riding around in a pen. All I got are thoughts of mine and my pen. (Bridge) Life, life dealt me cards, and I folded. I folded. Why, why do I feel so alone? I'm alone, and I know I- (Chorus) (Verse 2) Where have you gone? I'm alone on this road. You've been here all along 'til I need you. Now, you're gone, and I just wanted you to tell me that you wanted me too. Beauty and the ugly too. 'Cause my demons want to meet you. (Bridge) (Chorus) (Verse 3) My mind is like an island. I'm in distress. It's been decided. I meant to give you undivided attention; yours was quite divided, and I guess- (Bridge) (Chorus)
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You Made Her Cry (Intro) Always at a crossroad. Right, left. Maybe best. Maybe not so. Never really wanna listen, though you got told he's no good. May be hot, but his word's cold. (Chorus) You made her cry. You made her cry. You made her tears fall down. (Verse 1) Said I'd be the one to treat you best. No lie. Now, I really gotta wonder if you're alright. Hearin' all these rumors how you ended with the wrong guy. Can't complain of circumstance when you're not tryin. Babygirl, you know he's gonna hurt you some more. He's always cheatin' on you blatantly and calls you the whore. And now he's acting like a father figure, not a lover. and he isn't solving anything by yelling at you, love. I'll tell him, I know. I know that you're full of lies. No lie, you're a fake. I see your facade. Now, you stole her soul, and then you stole the show because you plan to bring it to an end, and make her cry again. (Chorus) (Verse 2) ...He doesn't love you. He just loves the power that he feels as a result of your love. and he doesn't care about you gettin' torn up like I do. And all your other friends. I'm just sitting on the sideline, watchin' my team lose. Your headset must be busted because I'm yelling out plays. But it's hard to beat a player of the game. His intention is to win it, and the way's at your expense. I guess... I gotta watch the tears fall down. The man is in the redzone with a smile. Oh, love, of course, I shouldn't wipe the tears if I can't rid the source. (Chorus)
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(Chorus) Can't you see I'm tryin? I'm giving you all I've got. (Verse 1) ..Well, this is well overdue. ..So long, this became the elephant's room. Obsessed ever since I said hello to you, and.. then, I kinda got led on, so I went head-on into traffic. Headlights did blind 'til we crashed, and.. not an accident from your end. Girl, I think you wanted me flipped .. you seem a lot happier ever since, and.. in an instance, you forget it 'cause I wasn't yours to begin with in your eyes. And it tore my heart out. You must be a sadist. A predator, I'm the prey, and you weren't even hungry. Scratch that, I was nothing. You just wanted to remind me. Guess I'm finding out the hard way that love is really just a concept. Ah, yes. I guess. (Chorus) Can't you see I'm tryin? I'm giving you all I've got. Am I never worth it? What else should I give up? (Verse 2: C-Kid) Like a mine, it blows my mind that I'm never on yours, but you're always on mine. Love; it is but a concept, engaging the lust like sexual combat. Can't you see I gave you my all? Wanna give you the world, but you're never around. Constantly texting and always I call. Never cared about me; just your friends and the mall. Only care for material things Not about me or the love that I bring. I'd call you a B, but I know it would sting, But girl, if you left, I'd be in my feelings. Damn, I tried to be everything I could be, but see, love is a lesson, but you are the student and I cannot teach. (Chorus) Can't you see I'm tryin? I'm giving you all I've got. Am I never worth it? What else should I give up? There's nothing left to give you. The last bit of me is gone.
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(Chorus) All I need is you. Do you need me too? I Always think of you. Do you think of me too? All I mean to say is I don't wanna be the only one writing love songs. (Verse 1) You have a face like an angel's dream, And you're certainly lurking in mine. You're so novel; you're so vague, oblique.. No word can describe. Maybe you're a magnet, and I can't get my eyes off your eyes; They're the metal link, meddling inside my head, But instead of feeling like a breach, You kinda make me feel complete. You kinda make me feel complete like maybe you're the reason I can believe in love again. You kinda make me feel complete like maybe you're the reason I can believe in love. There is no one to compete, dear. You're at the top of my list, But am I on yours? I hope so, but I don't know. I'm just aware that I'm a bit insecure. (Chorus) [Verse 2: Komato$e] Ayy, baby girl, jus keep it on the hush 'Cause ya gotta be quiet, 'til you on the bus On the way to my arms, the weight of my palms Gettin' into the way of your thoughts Keep silent, keep quiet Keep the image of me in your head whilst we keep dyin' Never love without first trying We could have a trial run, darling I don't wanna love, unless you do I don't wanna run, unless you do I don't wanna see what a life without thee be like unless you want to too, boo I've got a few of these other men and women Lookin' for someone to have a standard livin' With and I don't want that, I want the wrongs I hope I'm not the only one writing love songs (Chorus) (Verse 3) Spring forth; you're my equinox. Please, just grant life to the trees and flowers. She's about as gorgeous as fields of flowers; That's sunflowers if you need to know, but yo, I guess that I digress. You'd find her in my heart if you dissect. There isn't a one in the sun that can take her place. I swear that her love would be a saving grace. Man, she isn't perfect. I know that. I wouldn't have it any other way 'cause I'm flawed too. If I love you, I love all you. Flaws too. Baby, I was lost in your eyes when I saw you, and there ain't a thought in my mind that would try to replace you or hate you. A day don't go by without you on my mind, and the sun would be shy in my world if you split. Baby, you are the light in my eyes. (Chorus)
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(Chorus) Dancing in the rain. Dancing in the moonlight. You're all I need. (Verse 1) All I need. You're all I want. In my dreams, you're all I see. Darling, you are my other half, and I want you to know: I can love no one else. (Chorus) Dancing in the rain. Dancing in the moonlight. You're all I need. (Verse 2) All I need. Do you need me? In your dreams, I'm never seen. Darling, I'm not yours, but I wish you the best in life. I'll even give you my half. (Chorus) Dancing in the rain. Dancing in the moonlight. You're all I need. All I need. No more dancing in the rain. No more dancing in the moonlight. How do I breathe, darling?
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(Chorus) Please. Please, believe me. Please, believe me. Please, believe me. (Verse 1) You may not know this, but I notice that you're on my mind a lot. You're a lotus. I'm below this. Shouldn't've ate the fruit, but wait, hold up. I'm lying. I don't think about you anymore. Babygirl, I just left shoes in the door. I got both feet out, and I ain't turning back no more. But there is another thang I wanna say to you. I waited; that was a mistake to do. 'Cause all you want is chase, no relationship, and that's why I really gotta say this. It's.. Love's not a game. Maybe it's a ploy or it's something to say when you're stuck in a daze. All I know is you've got my mind stuck in another ruckus today, so (Chorus) (Verse 2) Truth is, I don't really know what I wanna do. Every time in the past, I would always run to you, but that's not an option no more. You split; you never spared me. So, the lack of care means that you never cared for me. Now, I know the real you. Every time I see you, it just kinda reboots, and I feel the heartbreak that you made me feel too. And I feel kinda low, and my soul kinda sinks, and I feel kinda drained, and my brain says to leak, and my eyes would listen if they weren't run dry, and they feel kinda weak from all the times that I've cried over you in the past, but That's passed. The past has passed, and that can make me glad because of all the times that you had me sad. And I can now look back and say that that's the past. (Chorus) (Verse 3) I wanna say that you're right, babe, and we weren't meant to be together. All I wanna say is that we weren't meant to be together. (Chorus)
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Just a note for all of you. So far, throughout this album, we have discussed only heartbreak and sorrow with a few bits of comic relief in the middle to make it all bearable, but you need to realize that there is beauty in sorrow. If you never see evil, how can you fully appreciate the good in the world? If you are never sad, how can you fully be happy? If you are never heartbroken, how can you fully appreciate the feeling of love? It's raining, but isn't it amazing?
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Amazing 03:15
(Chorus) I see the rain drop on the porch. No thunder. I wonder, Why do we save for a rainy day? I'm saying, "Oh, isn't it amazing?" I said, oh, isn't it amazing? (Verse 1) Rain. Rain down from the rain clouds. Rain pours, makes sounds, but it ain't loud. Drip, drip, and I drop the tears That I've been waiting to release, bottled up for years, but it's not a sign that I'm weak. It's just a sign of the stress and the fears release. It's a cold life in this mind of mine, and there's no warmth in the sun anymore, so I'm back and forth and I'm side to side until I let go, and the rain starts to pour. It seems that every time the pain is done, I look up to the sky, but I don't see the sun; I see the rain. (Chorus) (Verse 2) Hear the pitter patter. Everything will start to matter. All worries please come to the front of the line in my mind. Guess you gotta set aside a time to fight the demons; that must just be the rain's design. As I relapse to depression, there's a lot of thoughts that I think that keep pressing like how do I be happy? Life is a car that I drive from the backseat. This is not finale. Get out of the valley. Frankly, we're not built for the test, but we're passing. Rain shouldn't feel like a crash scene. Maybe it's a break just to add to the happy. I see the rain. (Chorus) (Verse 3) Rain, rain, rain, rain go, go away. So, so I say until I feel the pain and then I start to break. You don't see the beauty of the rain. You only see the sun, but I've been going through a drought, and I can tell you that it's not a pleasant feeling. I've been cracked instead of healing, and a constant sky of blue can make you feel the color too. That's when I see the rain drop on the porch, and I start to release all the grief in a song, And I saw, when the clouds took their form, that hope and happiness were waiting right around the corner. I see the rain. (Chorus) (Outro) I said, oh, isn't it amazing? I said, oh, isn't it amazing?
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Hurting 03:27
(Chorus) Living fast, but I'm hurting too slowly. I've broken down, but the car is still goin. I don't feel that I got a real chance to say goodbye. Lonely nights that I'm looking at your photo. I hate the fact that it's all there is to go to. I don't feel that I got a real chance to say goodbye. (Verse 1) The hand you hold when days are cold Is now a cold hand Crossed over the heart that once loved unconditionally. One condition of the life that we hold is a terminate at will clause.. I miss your voice. I miss your voice. I miss the words you delivered so perfectly. I took a lot of influence from you. It's obvious. That's what this hobby is. It's just the media I used. ...I guess I'm selfish cause I wanted to go first Test the waters to see what is after earth. But selfish me only dictated one term: Prevent the grief. All I know is that I hurt. (Chorus) (Verse 2) So, let us write. Just let us write. I'm feeling wrong; it's my way to make it right. 80 years is an awfully long time. 21 means I learned enough to shine. And I got you... as a guide to life. Man, I'm lucky. I just wanted you to say goodbye or.. ...Or way more fitting is to say goodnight []Cause I'm really hoping that I can see you after time. And if I know you And you're up there, ... all you'll do is look right down to us. Watchin over us. Trying to wipe the tears away. .. but I'm not sure if the hurting can stop today. (Chorus) (x2) (Outro) Voicemail from Jerry Ulrich (Grandpa).

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